Permisi Family Goes To Bandung
- Adella Halim
- Oct 12, 2018
- 2 min read
An early farewell trip before we embark on a different path
Internship a.k.a co-assistant life is never the kind of routine I dreamed about.
When I first started out this journey, I thought I wouldn't last a week and I was right. I got several panic attacks during the first week. I couldn't sleep, got no spirit to study, lost interest to all of my hobbies and had no intention to "fix" myself.
From this whole bunch of people, I was only close to one. She has always been the member of my girl squad since I started this medical career. Even she didn't know. I hide it from everyone, pretending and acting as if everything's fine. With internal medicine being my first cycle, it was not an easy adaptation period. We were bombarded with tons of things to do and when you're a student in my university, they expected you to excel every single damn time. I was so lost and was drowning in all of my worries, sorrows and negative thoughts.
"No one understands, no one will know how I feel because they wanted this from the beginning"
After constant battle of positive and negative thoughts every single day, I managed to survive 'till now. And THEY took a big part of that. We aren't the closest but they show me love, care, compassion and try to always make me feel involved in a conversation. They make me feel that I matter, that I am not annoying to a point where they hate and/or can't stand me. It might be stupid for you but it meant the world to me. Some of them even took the time to get to know me better, despite any predicaments they had about me before this. I appreciate the courage they took and I am forever thankful for the friendships they offer.
This trip will forever be remembered as one of the most meaningful trip I ever took.
All the best and I'll see you at the top guys!
God bless.
Love, always and forever <3
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